Sam's just..someone. Olivia is only reacting like thsi because of something that julia told her. Olivia knew that i liked her more then a friend and she was fine with it. everything was fine between us. but then once i left for cuba julia talked to her and thats when everything got fucked up. Olivia recieved false info from a false fucking source.
who's sam?
ive been against your past loves cause I knew they would never work. only problem is you didnt. olivia may be nice and not at all ugly, she isnt a peice of shit. shes reacting like anyone would to finding out an aquaintance started liking her just because she was nice to her. you can be hostile to me, but I only put the peices of what yopu told me together. it should all be mostly accurate what i just said, and your wrong, I DO know you better than you know yourself, because i love you.
Okay first of all olivia is NOT a peice of fucking shit. She;s smart,caring, funny, beautiful and so much more. I did love her, i should know my own feelings your not me so how the fuck would you know how i felt about her? i never really thought she liked me more then a friend but i always left that opion open if she did. Yes i feel betrayed, betrayed by julia and i'm not fucking obsessed with it! Seconds of you really have to get your facts straight. i NEVER wrote creepy shit to julia. what i told julia was only that i love her thats it, thats all. yes i told a few people that i liked her, but only ally,tia,julia and sarah knew that i loved her. if a boy gave me a necklace for x-mas and wrote me a letter telling me how he feels why the fuck would i get creept out. and yeah okay sometimes i am happier with my other friends but thats because they try and help me and NOT FUCKING DO THIS. They listen to me and try and help me. They allow me to VENT. Everytime i have a problem or i like/love someone after while your always against it? what are you gonna be against Sam next? Honestly think about it?
its always about you and your love. you dont even care about me now, you arent even pretending to give a shit about anything but olivia and you and julia. THIS ISNT FAIR!!!
you dont give a fuck about me do you!?
why dont you see,
olivia is a PEICE OF FUCKING SHIT.
JULIA IS A PEICE OF FUCKING SHIT.
YOUR TREATING ME LIKE A PEICE OF FUCKING SHIT!
how can I make you see how stupid all this dumb DRAMA is?
cant you let it go?
YOU DIDNT LOVE HER, YOU THOUGHT SHE LIKED YOU, BUT SHE DIDNT. YOU FEEL BETRAYED AND YOU ARE OBSESSED WITH IT.
but jesus christ!
she never liked you back. she just wanted to be friends with you. you wrote CREEPY shit to julia and told ALL your friends you loved her. Why would she not be creeped out? if a boy did that to you, you'd be creeped out, admit it.
also, your always happy with your other friends. im sure its cause they make you happier than me. i must be a real bad friend to not even make you happy anymore so im sorry.
I want to be your friend, but you dont want it, and you certainly dont want my love either, right?
we are forever connected, and its starting to really hurt.
your choking me, jen.
its not always about mes never about me its always about other people. i'm always helping other people with THEIR problems and then getting nothing back in return..actually if i said that id be lying cause i do get something in return..i get BULLSHIT a stab in the back, or them hateing me or anything along that line. i have all my life and ive always not really done anything about it but after a couple of years and after a bith,slut fuck like julia you flip. the rope gets cut and thats it. do you know what i mean? yes i know that you fell hated or something but right now i can;t really do anything about it until i get meself straight. until i know what do to and where to go
why is it always about you?
what about how I feel?
do you think its easy living without you?
do you think I like feeling like I dont matter enough for you to even CALL me once in awhile? what about ME?
i know that it takes work to keep a friendship going and all but sometimes people break down and just need time to recover if they ever do..haven't you been readign what ive wrote i'm not myself, i'm violent and all that shit like i said before, don't you think that this is kinda strange to me, i don't care about anything lately and i don't even know what to think or say or anything anymore.
*Sigh* like ive said before im just really not here. i'm really confused but pissed off at the same time. Eversince this has happened i've slowly day by day become more violent. i mean i poke,push,trip etc ally everyday i mean i know i shouldn't but i do. i get ticked off way more easily and..this is all strange to me because this isn't me i'm not like that. I'm not violent, and i don't get ticked off easily. i used to be patient and not have a temper. but for some reason....*sigh* i dono. the day before yesterday olivia signed onto msn which is very rare and so i talked to her and she told me that she's mad at me so i asked her what i did wrong and she was like "EVERYTHING!" THAT is not olivia. olivia is not like that..she's sweet,cute, caring funny and always there. Juila must of said something to her that made her act this way towards me and julia isn't telling me ANYTHING. when ever i ask her she's always in a good mood and doesnt wanan ruin it or she logs off or something, its just GAH!!!! its driving me insane. i mean i LOVED her i actually LOVED her. i mean yeah sure i liked mel,robbyn and -.- julia..but ive never actually LOVED them what i felt for them i thought was love but it wasnt it wasnt even close to it and this has impacted me alot of what is going on between me and her.
what about me?
you know, it takes work to keep a friendship going. We are bonded and nobody loves me, its true, none like you do, but lately im questioning that. Maybe its cause you make no effort to talk to me or be a part of my life. maybe its cause you NEVER call me or try to be with me out of school. Im willing to sacrifice my friendship with others just for you and im not getting anything from you anymore. cant you see that this is killing me? your pain is hurting me more than you know and its pulling yourself away from me. tell me if I should just quit having you part of me.
we were not kinda friends, we were REALLY good friends. we would pass notes to each other in english class, we would talk on the phone sometimes, we would talk on MSN, she stayed up till 2am with me on MSN talking with me. We used to text ALL the time from after school until 10pm or later. Sometimes we started to talk at 2am cause her texting woke me up lol...we were close, i understood her and she understood me...and now i feel like half of me is gone and my world is dark and gray without her in it...
Why would you make me miserable? i just have alot of shit to deal with right now and i need you to understand that. She meant ALOT to me, more then i can say
look i WANT to help you, but you dont want me too.
im trying but your acting cold to me. i want to beleive that you act this way around me cause thats how you really feel but that doesnt mean that your not happy round your other friends. i make you miserable and i dont even know why or how.
yeah i do remeber it..but now that place is a dark place of my past where memories will stay..memories of you, and memories of she devil. i don't know if i still love you like that anymore. like i said before i'm confused about alot of things right now and can't make sence of anything. i can;t even stand on my own feet without needing help at the moment.
Do you know what i mean?
oh love,
remember the sunset dock of our past? the way it rocked and the wind blew our hair gently and the smell of cool fresh water and our little conversations about dumb little things that meant so much at the time...
You were so wonderfull then,
happy, pure and sweet. Youre still her, but just a little more heartbroken and a little bit older. so, love, please be honest,
do you love me anymore?
I always thought him was kepu.
hes cute.
please show me the song sometime
:( i guess im an ugly lame-o nowadays or something.
it seems like everytime I start to like someone who likes me, they start NOT LIKING ME!!!
that has happened 5 TIMES IN A ROW! I guess your no different.
this really sucks.
Is She Devil retarded or what!
Yeah i know its weird..i loved you last year also..remeber when i asked the cards about "him"? that was you. thanks =) were using that song for our band, the one i did for her..if u wanna hear it i could show you it sometime..
bioteddy at 9:55AM, Feb. 16, 2007
how do you even know that? and why cant you just get past this whole issue?
bioteddy at 9:55AM, Feb. 16, 2007
how do you even know that? and why cant you just get past this whole issue?
xxHeartBrokenxx at 11:38AM, Feb. 15, 2007
no she didn't, she twisted it and turned it
bioteddy at 11:38AM, Feb. 15, 2007
but julia probobly only repeated what you said.
xxHeartBrokenxx at 11:37AM, Feb. 15, 2007
Sam's just..someone. Olivia is only reacting like thsi because of something that julia told her. Olivia knew that i liked her more then a friend and she was fine with it. everything was fine between us. but then once i left for cuba julia talked to her and thats when everything got fucked up. Olivia recieved false info from a false fucking source.
bioteddy at 11:35AM, Feb. 15, 2007
who's sam? ive been against your past loves cause I knew they would never work. only problem is you didnt. olivia may be nice and not at all ugly, she isnt a peice of shit. shes reacting like anyone would to finding out an aquaintance started liking her just because she was nice to her. you can be hostile to me, but I only put the peices of what yopu told me together. it should all be mostly accurate what i just said, and your wrong, I DO know you better than you know yourself, because i love you.
xxHeartBrokenxx at 11:30AM, Feb. 15, 2007
Okay first of all olivia is NOT a peice of fucking shit. She;s smart,caring, funny, beautiful and so much more. I did love her, i should know my own feelings your not me so how the fuck would you know how i felt about her? i never really thought she liked me more then a friend but i always left that opion open if she did. Yes i feel betrayed, betrayed by julia and i'm not fucking obsessed with it! Seconds of you really have to get your facts straight. i NEVER wrote creepy shit to julia. what i told julia was only that i love her thats it, thats all. yes i told a few people that i liked her, but only ally,tia,julia and sarah knew that i loved her. if a boy gave me a necklace for x-mas and wrote me a letter telling me how he feels why the fuck would i get creept out. and yeah okay sometimes i am happier with my other friends but thats because they try and help me and NOT FUCKING DO THIS. They listen to me and try and help me. They allow me to VENT. Everytime i have a problem or i like/love someone after while your always against it? what are you gonna be against Sam next? Honestly think about it?
bioteddy at 11:23AM, Feb. 15, 2007
its always about you and your love. you dont even care about me now, you arent even pretending to give a shit about anything but olivia and you and julia. THIS ISNT FAIR!!! you dont give a fuck about me do you!? why dont you see, olivia is a PEICE OF FUCKING SHIT. JULIA IS A PEICE OF FUCKING SHIT. YOUR TREATING ME LIKE A PEICE OF FUCKING SHIT! how can I make you see how stupid all this dumb DRAMA is? cant you let it go? YOU DIDNT LOVE HER, YOU THOUGHT SHE LIKED YOU, BUT SHE DIDNT. YOU FEEL BETRAYED AND YOU ARE OBSESSED WITH IT. but jesus christ! she never liked you back. she just wanted to be friends with you. you wrote CREEPY shit to julia and told ALL your friends you loved her. Why would she not be creeped out? if a boy did that to you, you'd be creeped out, admit it. also, your always happy with your other friends. im sure its cause they make you happier than me. i must be a real bad friend to not even make you happy anymore so im sorry. I want to be your friend, but you dont want it, and you certainly dont want my love either, right? we are forever connected, and its starting to really hurt. your choking me, jen.
xxHeartBrokenxx at 11:04AM, Feb. 15, 2007
its not always about mes never about me its always about other people. i'm always helping other people with THEIR problems and then getting nothing back in return..actually if i said that id be lying cause i do get something in return..i get BULLSHIT a stab in the back, or them hateing me or anything along that line. i have all my life and ive always not really done anything about it but after a couple of years and after a bith,slut fuck like julia you flip. the rope gets cut and thats it. do you know what i mean? yes i know that you fell hated or something but right now i can;t really do anything about it until i get meself straight. until i know what do to and where to go
bioteddy at 10:59AM, Feb. 15, 2007
why is it always about you? what about how I feel? do you think its easy living without you? do you think I like feeling like I dont matter enough for you to even CALL me once in awhile? what about ME?
xxHeartBrokenxx at 10:58AM, Feb. 15, 2007
i know that it takes work to keep a friendship going and all but sometimes people break down and just need time to recover if they ever do..haven't you been readign what ive wrote i'm not myself, i'm violent and all that shit like i said before, don't you think that this is kinda strange to me, i don't care about anything lately and i don't even know what to think or say or anything anymore.
bioteddy at 10:56AM, Feb. 15, 2007
All the things I wote a few minutes ago. look down a little.
xxHeartBrokenxx at 10:55AM, Feb. 15, 2007
What do you mean what about you? :S
bioteddy at 10:45AM, Feb. 15, 2007
what about ME!?
xxHeartBrokenxx at 10:41AM, Feb. 15, 2007
*Sigh* like ive said before im just really not here. i'm really confused but pissed off at the same time. Eversince this has happened i've slowly day by day become more violent. i mean i poke,push,trip etc ally everyday i mean i know i shouldn't but i do. i get ticked off way more easily and..this is all strange to me because this isn't me i'm not like that. I'm not violent, and i don't get ticked off easily. i used to be patient and not have a temper. but for some reason....*sigh* i dono. the day before yesterday olivia signed onto msn which is very rare and so i talked to her and she told me that she's mad at me so i asked her what i did wrong and she was like "EVERYTHING!" THAT is not olivia. olivia is not like that..she's sweet,cute, caring funny and always there. Juila must of said something to her that made her act this way towards me and julia isn't telling me ANYTHING. when ever i ask her she's always in a good mood and doesnt wanan ruin it or she logs off or something, its just GAH!!!! its driving me insane. i mean i LOVED her i actually LOVED her. i mean yeah sure i liked mel,robbyn and -.- julia..but ive never actually LOVED them what i felt for them i thought was love but it wasnt it wasnt even close to it and this has impacted me alot of what is going on between me and her.
bioteddy at 10:31AM, Feb. 15, 2007
what about me? you know, it takes work to keep a friendship going. We are bonded and nobody loves me, its true, none like you do, but lately im questioning that. Maybe its cause you make no effort to talk to me or be a part of my life. maybe its cause you NEVER call me or try to be with me out of school. Im willing to sacrifice my friendship with others just for you and im not getting anything from you anymore. cant you see that this is killing me? your pain is hurting me more than you know and its pulling yourself away from me. tell me if I should just quit having you part of me.
xxHeartBrokenxx at 4:44PM, Feb. 13, 2007
we were not kinda friends, we were REALLY good friends. we would pass notes to each other in english class, we would talk on the phone sometimes, we would talk on MSN, she stayed up till 2am with me on MSN talking with me. We used to text ALL the time from after school until 10pm or later. Sometimes we started to talk at 2am cause her texting woke me up lol...we were close, i understood her and she understood me...and now i feel like half of me is gone and my world is dark and gray without her in it...
bioteddy at 8:04AM, Feb. 13, 2007
but why? you were kinda friends for like two weeks. how can you feel this way.
xxHeartBrokenxx at 8:03AM, Feb. 13, 2007
Why would you make me miserable? i just have alot of shit to deal with right now and i need you to understand that. She meant ALOT to me, more then i can say
bioteddy at 8:01AM, Feb. 13, 2007
look i WANT to help you, but you dont want me too. im trying but your acting cold to me. i want to beleive that you act this way around me cause thats how you really feel but that doesnt mean that your not happy round your other friends. i make you miserable and i dont even know why or how.
xxHeartBrokenxx at 7:59AM, Feb. 13, 2007
yeah i do remeber it..but now that place is a dark place of my past where memories will stay..memories of you, and memories of she devil. i don't know if i still love you like that anymore. like i said before i'm confused about alot of things right now and can't make sence of anything. i can;t even stand on my own feet without needing help at the moment. Do you know what i mean?
bioteddy at 3:36PM, Feb. 12, 2007
oh love, remember the sunset dock of our past? the way it rocked and the wind blew our hair gently and the smell of cool fresh water and our little conversations about dumb little things that meant so much at the time... You were so wonderfull then, happy, pure and sweet. Youre still her, but just a little more heartbroken and a little bit older. so, love, please be honest, do you love me anymore?
bioteddy at 10:15AM, Feb. 12, 2007
I always thought him was kepu. hes cute. please show me the song sometime :( i guess im an ugly lame-o nowadays or something. it seems like everytime I start to like someone who likes me, they start NOT LIKING ME!!! that has happened 5 TIMES IN A ROW! I guess your no different. this really sucks. Is She Devil retarded or what!
xxHeartBrokenxx at 10:11AM, Feb. 12, 2007
Yeah i know its weird..i loved you last year also..remeber when i asked the cards about "him"? that was you. thanks =) were using that song for our band, the one i did for her..if u wanna hear it i could show you it sometime..
bioteddy at 10:09AM, Feb. 12, 2007
its weird, as soon as yuo stop loving me that way I start loving you. your hair is gorgeous jen. and so are you. Fuck She Devil shes a retard