14 04

Zarya on March 2, 2015

How much does Adrik trust Enya? How much should Adrik trust Enya? One of those questions will be answered by the end of the chapter ;)

Almost a year ago I wrote a really long, ramble-y post on one part of my life that leaked into Eternity Complex, wrong first impressions. At the time, I slightly mentioned my issue with trust in that post but never really went too deep with it. Well, I guess it's something about this time of year, because I'm feeling like rambling a little more (but I'll try to keep this post much shorter).

Trust is another one of those things that stumbled it's way into the story due to the environment I grew up in. I spent my childhood trusting the wrong people and suffered the consequences as a result. And, part of that experience has made me really marvel at people who are capable of trusting others unquestionably without having the other party break that trust (I marvel a lot less now that I'm in a much better situation, but I still marvel a bit). Out of all the character dynamics that appear, I think I explored trust the most visibly in the relationship between Adrik and Enya. I think part of that is due to the fact that they've known each other the longest and part of that is because they've been in the cast from the very beginning. Now whether the trust between the two is based on my life experience or idealization or somewhere in between is yet to be revealed but it's one of those things that pops up from time to time.

I hope that my rambling doesn't affect how you've been viewing the story so far. I just had a bunch of free days off from school due to weather last week and felt like rambling as a result. It's never my intent to make any of the reoccurring themes in Eternity Complex stand out in the writing and I never started writing with any themes in mind. But, as I've gotten older, I've come to realize just how much of my own life experiences and thoughts have transferred over into what I'm writing. When I was younger I plotted out the story by thinking, “wouldn't it be cool if…” and, “I really like it when other stories do X so I want to try and do X” without putting a lot of thought into why those things resonated with me. First and foremost, though, I want Eternity Complex to be an enjoyable fantasy adventure story. Everything else is secondary. I have always hated reading books that beat the reader over the head with the author's intent (Scarlet Letter I'm looking at you) and I hope my story never does that. I've always felt and still feel that what the audience gets from a story supersedes authorial intent and so as long as your happy with the story, I'm happy.

Thanks for reading my ramble-y mess and thanks for reading Eternity Complex! <3