Prologue_Page5

kyupol on Sept. 5, 2007

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Notes on the Page (and rant)
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Making lines sketchy is actually a way to pump out pages faster. 1 hour or less (from scratch to final) to finish this page.

And I wish I had a better artistic capability. If I did, this comic would have been better.

It took me 1 year of art college and maybe a month of basic drawing training to get to this level. If I have the time and money to do 6 months to a year of art training at a private school to push my skill to the next few levels, I am confident that this comic would look as good as PINKY TA (or even better). In 2004, I got Drunkduck “most improved comic” award. And if you followed my comics since that time, for sure you've noticed the stagnation in quality. Of course there were little improvements here and there… but the improvement rate has just stagnated.

Dont believe me? I taught my ex-gf the basics on how to draw and color… and then she took 6 months of art classes to push up her skills enough to get her to animation school. And she IS right now (while I kept getting rejected at least 5x… so that means she is BETTER at drawing than me.. lol Animation schools require ELITE level of drawing skill). So if you see a comic with a drawing or coloring style similar to mine, it is probably HER. She is living proof of my ability to teach people.

lol but realistically speaking, I dont have the time to focus my energies on art. As I need to make $$$ to pay my bills and shit. Just like most men my age, I am financially struggling and still trying to find my way in life.

Right now, my energies are more dedicated to learning about cars… (I'm a P/T mechanic helper aside from the office job) because I'm thinking of pursuing a career as an auto technician. Though I'm still a wanderer career-wise… and I've also looked at I.T., construction, and truck driving as potential careers.

I know that I like working with my hands, working with tools, learning how to fix stuff, and doing art. I like cars… driving or repairing em… and I can withstand long periods of isolation on the road that truck drivers often face (lol I've been a loner most of my life… and my office job requires me to work at isolated conditions and weird hours sometimes).

And I just don't get ANY support from my family… Not only that. I get TONS OF DEMORALIZATION AND DISCOURAGEMENT from them NO MATTER WHAT I DO or TRY TO DO. My parents and other family are one of the reasons why I had low self-esteem during my early years of life until I “smartened up”. They always criticize me for having no sense of direction and for looking at and trying different things. But fuck em! The moment things turn around and I am a big success, I WILL MAKE THEM EAT THEIR WORDS!!! I will not listen to their baseless, empty words! Their bullshit will NEVER soak into my skull…

Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.
- Albert Einstein -

So yeah… there is no room for me to be demoralized. Because if I get my spirits broken, there is nobody to fix it. lol… that is one of the things my ex-gf taught me during the very second she became an “ex”.

I taught her art… and that skill will be with her until she dies.

She taught me reality… and that skill will be with me until I die.

Fair enough? lol