SS5 p80 Meeting Nikki
skyangel on Jan. 22, 2015
The story so far: Nikki has gender dysphoria and has tried to suppress her female side to live an ordinary family life. When Sarah first met her she had seperated from her wife and was living in the flat above and it was through Sarah that she began to relax more about being her true self. However Nikki still missed her wife and daughter and when the wife suggested they give it another try she was only to happy to return but it was on the condition Nikki kept her feminine side contained once again. Sarah and Janey had always accepted Nikki's longing to dress and live as a woman and so gave her that opportunity again on their holiday together in Scotland.
skyangel at 12:16AM, Jan. 31, 2015
Tommym: As the others say, there's no need to apologise. If you felt passionate enough to let all that out then there's no need to feel guilty about it and I do always appreciate those of you who take the time to stop and sharee your thoughts rather than just reading and moving on again. *hugs* As for the True to our Hearts forum, it was a lovely idea and worked well when Rei and Liz and a few others were very keen to keep the thing alive but I was nearly always spending so much time on getting the updates done (Twice weekly back then!) that my own support was very lame. In the end tho the place got flooded with spam and I later spent almost an entire day just removing weird posts of and ads and blocking the addresses that left them only to come back next day and see there were a load more and all appeared to be auto-generated by some computer. It's still up if you want to go in but I'd be amazed if anyone read what you left there as I'm sure it's just an old abandoned house now!:)
tommym at 4:26PM, Jan. 28, 2015
Dear Sky, @tupapayon, Kimluster, et al...Thanks for the kind support guys The other day I tried to get to the "True to Our Hearts" website forum and failed after several attempts. I had that Thought in mind when as I re-read those back pages:)tommym
KimLuster at 6:49AM, Jan. 27, 2015
Yeah I never apologize... except when I'm sorry! :D
tupapayon at 8:55PM, Jan. 26, 2015
@tommym: wow... don't apologize... it's better to let out those kinds of thoughts and feelings, than let them rot your mind and soul... should be as natural as farting... err... wrong analogy.... it's like poopi... dang! I'm full of it today!...
tommym at 6:06PM, Jan. 25, 2015
Dear Sky @ et al sorry about the rant This started about Nikki and the Webcomic he wrote. about who created what tommym
tommym at 6:01PM, Jan. 25, 2015
Dear Sky, part 2 "battery ran out'Sarah we know had a problem with a violent father is a private person and deserves privacy if thre is such a thing in an day and age when hi=tech makes it possible to suck up the phone records of billions of totally innocent people.In Nikki case It did seem to me he was attempting to do some thing nice, like a some one writing a poem for a loved one or a heart throb. Problem is said hand written poem does not circulate among a small circle of friends rather graphic stuff can be used Is it ok for a news paper to tap phone lines to determine what goes on in the privacy of ones bed room No I say is it ok to bring down MONSTERS controlling the money flow of tax payers Yes I say Buying votes to send sons and daughters to wars in order to stuff the pockets of the already wealthy, think ab=scam American Scandle think a pretext to war, think Silver turning into blood, the blood of our own sons and daughters the parents voting for a pol a Murdock as in engla
tommym at 5:26PM, Jan. 25, 2015
Dear Sky. @ Kim, Yes,I re-read those pages. I stand corrected, that dream is significant. That phrase "the real thing" Is a turn off to many women. I saw first hand how some men talk to women and worse the physical violence men do. Now that Sky has reminded me about the webcomic Nikki almost put on the web. I can now recall their was a noted discussion concerning the ethics of outing someone. I would have no problem outing a congress person or senator if lets say they were pushing anti women laws while leading a second duplicitous life. They are clearly liars and hypocrates sarah likes
skyangel at 8:35AM, Jan. 25, 2015
Hi guys, great comments as always!! My personal perspective on Nikki's offer was that I know Sarah has always got on well with her and they do have a very inseperable bond of close friendship but I've always felt Nikki dreams of a more intimate relationship than Sarah does and she's aware that it could cause problems if Nikki tried to push things further. Kim's right too in that the dream was really Sarah's subconcious awareness of what sharing a bed with Nikki meant (i'e Nikki's erection!) and magnifying it to a possible worse case scenario. Nikki was also pretty fixated on Sarah's life even when living above her, hence the comic book, and although Nikki' is not like Alison Sarah's probably aware that maybe her private life would be vulnerable too. I have some interesting stuff planned for Nikki anyway so she will plenty of other things to occupy her thoughts as we progress. ;)
Phantomduck at 11:54AM, Jan. 24, 2015
This is going to be complicated, no matter what Sarah chooses.
KimLuster at 5:45AM, Jan. 24, 2015
@tommym: I would've agreed with you totally if I hadn't seen that dream a few pages page!! Was that a premonition? Certainly don't think it insignificant!
DarkVisor at 4:53AM, Jan. 24, 2015
Whatever happens, personally feel that Sarah should, and needs to, explain her preferences to Karen, this is not just about Nikki and things could get worse if Karen continues to believe Sarah is straight, especially if they do move in with Nikki paying the rent
tommym at 2:50AM, Jan. 24, 2015
Dear Sarah, @ Kim I think Sarah can turn Nikki,s new found flat to several peoples advantage. Nikkis a true tested ally, having her own flat can serve as a safe house spot. and she can further atact a another eye for Lucy and or a early warning system spotting for Allison. @fallopian yeah Allison will not only go ballistic but the niki zeus anti- missles will be armed and ready, speaking of True to Our Hearts @ tupapayon yes, Nikki is sincere he does like/love Sarah. think Nikki who can pay entire rent can set up more flexable "rules" they can bump each other with Allison around deflecting Allisons throw weight Think triple date Allison, Lucy, Nikki, Sarah, Punk rock girl, Horse ranch girl....not nessaseraly in any order. @ BearinOz Agree don't move in with Allison but stay free range I can see the grey cells synapsing in Sarah s do good social net balancing act Sky, thanks again for explicating Love the fellow travlers nest second panel is that Jane Blonde? Tommym
Udyr at 2:40AM, Jan. 24, 2015
Say yes, oh god please do! It's not negotiable.
BearinOz at 11:24PM, Jan. 23, 2015
Hah! "never rains but it pours" as the old saying goes. I reckon it'd work, but poor old Alison ! Still, I don't think moving in with Alison _would_ work....but the timing is CRAP, eh ? B-) Surprised I'm not first on - it's up nice'n'early. ... p.s Got time to read B.E.? ....I think you'll find rather a lot of pages there, to catch up on ( he says, needing the comments B-) )
tupapayon at 8:06PM, Jan. 23, 2015
Nikki's offer, I think, is sincere… but he kinda likes Sarah, so it could be awkward, or someone might get hurt… but they could stablish clear ground rules and make it work…
fallopiancrusader at 5:24PM, Jan. 23, 2015
If Sarah moves in with Nikki instead taking Alison up on her offer, Alison is going to go ballistic! I can't wait! I hope Nikki stays true to herself for good this time. Remaining with someone who forbids you from being who you really are is tantamount to committing slow suicide. I know, I've been there.
KimLuster at 5:22PM, Jan. 23, 2015
Hmmm... This seems like it could work for Sarah, but I'm not sure why I have some misgivings... perhaps the same reason Sarah seems to be having some... Plus, that dream still creeps me out haha! I like these little synopsis you're giving in the author notes. I've got a pretty good grasp of the story now from the beginning, but they're still nice refreshers!