The Cherub Brothers Chapter 11.26
Magor on Jan. 20, 2023
really glad it's friday. i'm just really tired.
going back to work has been long and i'm coming home with migraines more and i think it's anxiety really fucking with my breathing. doesn't help my gym i go to on good routine has the floor closed so no workout. it's funny,, at work because of new exec there's been changes. i don't mind change, i'm cool with whatever. it's just i've seen weird shit and being dismissed or having the exec just steamroll and waste my time and going after us instead of going after the board because they've flat out admit they don't give a shit it a bit tiresome. i'm not happy at my job anymore and it's been kinda shitty that old coworkers i thought were cool i can feel a rift and if i bring it up i'll get dismissed. it's one thing i hate is dismissive. or my boss being snappy and subtle implying being resistant to change and going over shit i've already hear so it feels like a bastard example of micromanaging. been there 6 years now and i really wanted to stick around a bit longer to see the kids i teach graduate in 2028 but we'll see…for some that are trying to prioritize mental health they're pretty shitty at it. not to mention a delay in my raise and commuting nearly an hour for this place i'm at my wits end. i do art shows for supplemental income especially since i've not had an online sale since april 2022. i think i''m just really tired…work has me do Saturday events which is fine, but it's always last minute and they get pissy when i have an event i paid my spot for takes priority. it's hilarious a place that cries about money and the admins clean out. i really don't want to go into the school system because i know i'll just regress in substance abuse and a ruined marriage isn't in my bucket list. i'll figure something out and wait it out. we'll see…
holy shit this turned into a blog post! didn't mean to…just a lot happening in the background as i'm just doing my goddamned job. is it a terrible thing to home someone gets rear ended on the highway? sure. probably…i think too old old feelings on myself are coming back…i think those who've bought that Skeletal Hallucination kinda know what i'm talking about. though to consider that idea seems like career, relationship, and social suicide. i think too the closeness i felt at my job made the shitty commute and the iffy pay and taxes seemed worth it, though the only thing that's worth it is my students who i've gotten into shows…dunno…we'll see how things go this year…
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on with the update. after being silent nani kind of speaks up…circling around blaming bree has to stop or else they're all screwed.
thanks for reading and have a good weekend.
