sometimes I feel like the city has a split personality …it says go away.. “we only want what's shiny and the rich” ..“every thing must look picture perfect for the visitors”… then it also says wait “we want eccentric poor freaks.. to” its like the fight over ducks .. some people are like they are part of this world we need them.. the ducks are part of the picture we want to see.. part of why we are here… and some are like but they poop on the side walk… sometimes I feel like the soul of the city is being battled over …do we want a city for all… ducks …poor people.. rich people…in the middle people… that has poop on the side walk.. or a postcard city for the rich…. when I look at the shiny city sifi …. I wonder what did they do with the poor and the ducks…
If anyone's wondering on the latest news, J Riley is getting by living in her tent, but not very comfortably or happily. She had some things stolen, and her scanner is badly broken (a replacement scanner will arrive in about a week). She will have a bunch of new pages to post once the scanner arrives.
She's getting a lot of help from a lot of people in a lot of different places, I just hope one of them is a landlord / landlady who gives her a permanent place to stay, then she can get her life back together instead of being stuck in survival mode.
Thanks for the update felonimayhem, I was a getting worried about the author.
I can only offer my wishes that her situation gets better and my thanks to people like you who help her.
There's something you left out there; she was robbed, yes, but on the same day due to her getting lucky and getting a ping from her tablet (which had been stolen) on her smart phone, she was able to get her stuff back from the people who stole the tablet and the other things and in turn get them to leave the camp.
I can understand this, as a solution a hotline is not much good. However, even if they're crap at solving your problems, having someone to talk at can be really useful when the other options are grim indeed. I don't know your experience with suicidal ideation or rmccool's standard kit of coping mechanisms, and if this is a useful stop gap. I'm just talking from the perspective of having been down that road. It's the same as when I'm talking about legal structures to secure properties. Other people's mileage may vary, but I am trying to talk from some amount of experience.
350 mile circle and a interview with the homeless coalition people and nothing but a handful of paper work... all the camps lock you in till after 7 so no way I can stay and keep my job.. nothing... there is NOTHING.. ..there is litterly no place to go ... there is nothing... I just want to drive to the ocean and die... the homeless coalition is like there are options but none of them will be available... and I'm like so they aren't really options.. becuse they aren't available... and by the time they are it will be to fucking late..nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing isn't a choice.. its nothing...
Mayhem, there should be in patient programs that take Medicare. These are not usually general purpose hospitals. Getting a spot can take a long time. My expectation on personal and family experience is that a trip the general purpose ER *can* get you a spot in one of these programs. It will however take a long stay in the ER 3-5 days, while they find a bed. Getting strapped down is an unlikely horror story. You'd get a dose of atypical anti-phsycotic with anti-depressant properties, such as Seroquel. It's nice and cheap as well if you have to keep talking it. It will make a person drowsy and cuts out suicidal thoughts rapidly.
Don't you dare give up! No matter how hard it seems, you've just stumbled on a pebble just before reaching the finishing line is all this is and we're all here to cheer you getting and even help you get up and go on! Have you talked to any of your co-workers to see if any of them would be willing to take you in or rent a room, a plot of land for your camper, or something out to you?
And after further research I've learned doing that may not be in your best interest, the hospital might possibly make things worse instead of better, like keeping your restrained and drugged and sending you the bill, good heavens. So don't offer to be voluntarily committed, maybe ask the emergency room if they can arrange a meeting with a counselor for you and get some options.
I'd recommend going to the emergency room of the biggest hospital you can find, let them know you're suicidal and need help, see what they say. They may ask you to sign up to be voluntarily committed to the mental health care ward. You might lose your job because of this but right now I think keeping your life is the top priority and everything else is expendable.
Are there any hospitals that will admit you for long-term mental health treatment under a Medicaid policy? I think some time in a hospital would help. You'd get some stability and healthy food and some counseling on what step to take next, maybe even get connected with a doctor who has real remedies available instead of just illusions.
lost cat.… gave away my little tree. found no openings except in places that have a locked gate policy. the homeless coalition people told me I was clinically depressed and needed help medically and counseling for trauma ...and I was like du... I told you I am suicidal... and need help....
Did any trailer parks at Coeur d'Alele have an opening for your camper? It's a long drive but better than nothing. I wish people would stop being intentionally abusive to you and the people whose job it is to help people like you would provide some actual help.
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Kicked out of another place.... they wont tell me what I did wrong... only they dont like people like me......I try not to make eye contact.. or talk or play music or bother anyone...and people still tell me I I dont belong.... I will never belong....
Just going to work on staying alive today...if I think to far ahead... the question of what to do gets overwhelming.... just endure till tomorrow then do it again...
It just feels like that will never happen..I keep trying and people keep knocking me down..o dont have any hope for today's meeting ... but maybe I can push other people up even if i know I wont make it up the glass hill..maybe my destruction helps someone else.. if I die..
Storks got their reputations for being the symbol of motherhood because if they couldn't find food for their young, they'd tear open their chest so their fledglings would have food to eat. I'd like you to stick around as long as you can. Maybe give half your savings to your son and keep half for yourself? You just need one good turn of events to get back on your feet again.
Yeah still got the job...for now....my son has found a place that will work for him and his girlfriend... but not for me.. if they get approved..figure I give them my savings...I know I shouldn't think about suicide and that people love me....but I think about it a lot... giving the stuff I own to people it will help...and then just finishing it...I will try to make it one more day.. and then.. I'll try the one after that...
felonimayhem at 2:27PM, July 25, 2019
If anyone's wondering on the latest news, J Riley is getting by living in her tent, but not very comfortably or happily. She had some things stolen, and her scanner is badly broken (a replacement scanner will arrive in about a week). She will have a bunch of new pages to post once the scanner arrives.
felonimayhem at 5:51PM, July 27, 2019
She's getting a lot of help from a lot of people in a lot of different places, I just hope one of them is a landlord / landlady who gives her a permanent place to stay, then she can get her life back together instead of being stuck in survival mode.
Another Human Being at 3:59PM, July 27, 2019
Thanks for the update felonimayhem, I was a getting worried about the author. I can only offer my wishes that her situation gets better and my thanks to people like you who help her.
felonimayhem at 7:25PM, July 26, 2019
I'm not sure that she got everything back though, maybe just the tablet. I'll have to wait and hear from her.
Nowhereman10 at 6:43PM, July 26, 2019
There's something you left out there; she was robbed, yes, but on the same day due to her getting lucky and getting a ping from her tablet (which had been stolen) on her smart phone, she was able to get her stuff back from the people who stole the tablet and the other things and in turn get them to leave the camp.
DarkAgeCat at 10:14AM, July 3, 2019
Please do not forget suicide prevention help lines, they cost nothing. ---- https://www.idahosuicideprevention.org/ ---- 1-208-398-4357
DarkAgeCat at 6:03PM, July 10, 2019
I can understand this, as a solution a hotline is not much good. However, even if they're crap at solving your problems, having someone to talk at can be really useful when the other options are grim indeed. I don't know your experience with suicidal ideation or rmccool's standard kit of coping mechanisms, and if this is a useful stop gap. I'm just talking from the perspective of having been down that road. It's the same as when I'm talking about legal structures to secure properties. Other people's mileage may vary, but I am trying to talk from some amount of experience.
felonimayhem at 2:14PM, July 3, 2019
She has not had good results with those in the past, often they hang up on her or just say that there's nothing they can do to help.
rmccool at 6:36PM, June 25, 2019
350 mile circle and a interview with the homeless coalition people and nothing but a handful of paper work... all the camps lock you in till after 7 so no way I can stay and keep my job.. nothing... there is NOTHING.. ..there is litterly no place to go ... there is nothing... I just want to drive to the ocean and die... the homeless coalition is like there are options but none of them will be available... and I'm like so they aren't really options.. becuse they aren't available... and by the time they are it will be to fucking late..nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing isn't a choice.. its nothing...
DarkAgeCat at 10:09AM, July 3, 2019
Mayhem, there should be in patient programs that take Medicare. These are not usually general purpose hospitals. Getting a spot can take a long time. My expectation on personal and family experience is that a trip the general purpose ER *can* get you a spot in one of these programs. It will however take a long stay in the ER 3-5 days, while they find a bed. Getting strapped down is an unlikely horror story. You'd get a dose of atypical anti-phsycotic with anti-depressant properties, such as Seroquel. It's nice and cheap as well if you have to keep talking it. It will make a person drowsy and cuts out suicidal thoughts rapidly.
Nowhereman10 at 3:41PM, June 26, 2019
Don't you dare give up! No matter how hard it seems, you've just stumbled on a pebble just before reaching the finishing line is all this is and we're all here to cheer you getting and even help you get up and go on! Have you talked to any of your co-workers to see if any of them would be willing to take you in or rent a room, a plot of land for your camper, or something out to you?
felonimayhem at 7:20AM, June 26, 2019
And after further research I've learned doing that may not be in your best interest, the hospital might possibly make things worse instead of better, like keeping your restrained and drugged and sending you the bill, good heavens. So don't offer to be voluntarily committed, maybe ask the emergency room if they can arrange a meeting with a counselor for you and get some options.
felonimayhem at 6:59AM, June 26, 2019
I'd recommend going to the emergency room of the biggest hospital you can find, let them know you're suicidal and need help, see what they say. They may ask you to sign up to be voluntarily committed to the mental health care ward. You might lose your job because of this but right now I think keeping your life is the top priority and everything else is expendable.
felonimayhem at 6:27AM, June 26, 2019
Are there any hospitals that will admit you for long-term mental health treatment under a Medicaid policy? I think some time in a hospital would help. You'd get some stability and healthy food and some counseling on what step to take next, maybe even get connected with a doctor who has real remedies available instead of just illusions.
rmccool at 11:08PM, June 25, 2019
lost cat.… gave away my little tree. found no openings except in places that have a locked gate policy. the homeless coalition people told me I was clinically depressed and needed help medically and counseling for trauma ...and I was like du... I told you I am suicidal... and need help....
felonimayhem at 7:37PM, June 25, 2019
Did any trailer parks at Coeur d'Alele have an opening for your camper? It's a long drive but better than nothing. I wish people would stop being intentionally abusive to you and the people whose job it is to help people like you would provide some actual help.
Nowhereman10 at 1:54AM, June 25, 2019
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Dragonfire10503 at 8:17PM, June 24, 2019
Please don't give up. Only the dead are beyond help. Also it would be a tragedy to lose you and your stories.
Mr Kaos at 6:41AM, June 24, 2019
hope you are ok
rmccool at 6:59PM, June 23, 2019
Kicked out of another place.... they wont tell me what I did wrong... only they dont like people like me......I try not to make eye contact.. or talk or play music or bother anyone...and people still tell me I I dont belong.... I will never belong....
rmccool at 2:38PM, June 24, 2019
Just going to work on staying alive today...if I think to far ahead... the question of what to do gets overwhelming.... just endure till tomorrow then do it again...
felonimayhem at 1:55PM, June 24, 2019
You're helping other people by staying alive. Your comics are inspiring. And all the effort you put in at work helps keep the world running too.
rmccool at 1:09PM, June 24, 2019
It just feels like that will never happen..I keep trying and people keep knocking me down..o dont have any hope for today's meeting ... but maybe I can push other people up even if i know I wont make it up the glass hill..maybe my destruction helps someone else.. if I die..
felonimayhem at 9:48AM, June 24, 2019
Storks got their reputations for being the symbol of motherhood because if they couldn't find food for their young, they'd tear open their chest so their fledglings would have food to eat. I'd like you to stick around as long as you can. Maybe give half your savings to your son and keep half for yourself? You just need one good turn of events to get back on your feet again.
rmccool at 6:57AM, June 24, 2019
Yeah still got the job...for now....my son has found a place that will work for him and his girlfriend... but not for me.. if they get approved..figure I give them my savings...I know I shouldn't think about suicide and that people love me....but I think about it a lot... giving the stuff I own to people it will help...and then just finishing it...I will try to make it one more day.. and then.. I'll try the one after that...