So I posted in the discord and in advert forum about having some personal problems happening, again, and needed some quick cash.
What happened is mom lost her job a bit ago, three weeks almost, and we were twenty, thirty something short of making the room for the weekend or wind up at the airport (which seems like it will happen but at a later date).
During this there was a LOT of turmoil that mom was trying for a loan for 12 thousand to put a down payment for a small house, and it fell through, and she hadn't heard from her boyfriend since he gone out to sea for two weeks, and this is causing her a lot of mental anguish which tend to tell me about how she's depressed and bouncing between “I give up” and “I will burn down the world to get what I want”.
(Update: Mom's boyfriend did contact her, that's a plus).

Right now I am just doing what I can to keep a roof over my head as I heard the sheriff's department was arresting people for sleeping in pubic places which is scary, and that's basically what the panic induced begging of funds was as I thought I needed twenty bucks to cover this weekend, she got a small loan and now it's get out on Sunday unless I can make something but at least it bought us some time.

What's been happening since my last vent, not much. Went for a job interview that was a waste of time because while the interview went well they hired no one, and I waited in the heat for hours for the job.

So after that I decide on just focusing on pushing my art because I figured the odds are about equal now, finding a stable job even a crap one is less possible than trying to find commissions and selling products, which is slim. I still plug along with the occasional application but I am not expecting anything any more.

Right now I am feeling like I am in limbo, kind of just waiting for the next big disaster to push me forward into some new direction which I know at long last I will be on my own, whatever it be a happy leaving of the “nest” or a nasty severance I will stand on my own feet eventually, I just have to survive in the mean time.

Along with this I was hired to do a short porn comic, an original fantasy furry guro porn piece because that's what a friend of mine wanted, but it is a paying gig and I hope to have more in the future, not just commissions but find small zines or indie press comics or works eventually.

On a silly note to fulfill the dumb things of the title, I had been listening to Mexican urban legends, and not just the typical stuff but things like the ghost Korean woman who ride the Mexican city metro like a vanishing hitchhiker or the fact the city is sinking or the haunted church built on where a man who sold his soul for wealth was buried because he body was cursed to be too wicked for a hollowed cemetery, hench the church on top to hold back his evil.


{EDIT 2: Just kind of wanted to add this thing that won't stop causing me high anxiety is mom constantly talking about how if she can't pull this off we are DOOMED and how she's too old and this wasn't suppose to happen. I just don't know how to act to that, I mean this is terrible, but we're in Florida, there's worse places to be and honestly I had been through far, far worse and truthfully I tired of being reminded of how screwed we are instead of trying to find a solution, or at least a cushion to start again, or letting me do my JOB of making art, I feel bad because I am just.. numb to it really.]

The fact that you refer her to as “Mom” and not “my mom” is telling

lothar wrote:
The fact that you refer her to as “Mom” and not “my mom” is telling

I think that just shows how comfortable he is with us here at DD.

I really feel for him :(

Okay.
Sooo….
Just an update. I got a place to stay, mom manage to get into a program that got us into an apartment for a while. I have a huge court date coming up on the 7th which has me scared because I could go to jail for a year. It's a serious trespassing charge, because we were at the airport like so many other homeless people and unable to go to the shelter (I was banned for having the cats, as the director HATED them, she pissed them off too much)

So I am just feeling like again facing my own execution and like I am going to lose everything because mom just did not want to listen to me when we at the airport to just leave for a while, the sheriff came back super quick, like three times they told us to leave or they will have us trespassed and next time arrested, left for a few minutes and came back from “patrol”.

The weird thing is it is tied to a woman who runs the airport that hates her guts, got her fired several times at a few jobs and had people constantly hound us but that's very hard to prove despite the woman saying it on a different sheriff body cam that she hated our guts and wanted us gone.

Honestly it felt like it wouldn't had gotten this bad if mom didn't get us trespassed for two more times, again she was pissing people off, one was because she was at war with the hospital but that involved a security officer was going to try to kill me while she was getting heart surgery, the other was because she went to war with a Racetrac manager because she wanted to spend all the time there charging at the plugs at the table, I wanted to go to the Library instead and take turns charging up and watching things but she refused because, again, caused a mini war there too.

Well, I am just not doing much, not job searching or making long term plans because I know this will go badly.

But here's some kind of good news, I got a boyfriend and trying being closeted transfem, and hopeful I will get myself out of this nightmare mess.

Thanks for the support everyone.

That's a LOT of upps and downs man :(
I hope the court date goes your way!

Got good news, the charges had been dropped!
YAY!
I am so happy!

Hooray!

Furwerk studio wrote:
Got good news, the charges had been dropped!
YAY!
I am so happy!

Thank goodness!!!! <3