or you could use your hate to get back at the ones you hate using gifts….buy everyone that doesnt like you a gift…something nice…and let them know you still hate them….

there's nothing more spiteful than a gift to say….“ I hate you”


shin chan says, “to be a man you must have honor and a penis”

~"seventy2
or you could use your hate to get back at the ones you hate using gifts….buy everyone that doesnt like you a gift…something nice…and let them know you still hate them….

Better idea: Kick them in the crotch.

I have no fucking electricity. Why? I don't fucking know. The rest of the floor seems to be fine. I've got about fifty minutes before the battery in my laptop conks out. Bastards.

Shin Chan FTW!

Well…I have my psych test today for Silverthorne. That's one of the worst places to send someone like me to go do. Fifty questions, asked ten different ways each, 500 questions total, two answers each question, and three to five hours to take it…argh…

My patience starts to wear thin with things like that and the questions are REALLY stupid, “Would you rather drive NASCAR or be a flouriest? / Do you like small animals or giraffes?” I shit you not, those are some of the questions.

Maybe I'll get the 300 question test that has three answers to each question which are Strong Believer / Undecided / Strong Opposer. Anyone who has seen the movie The Game knows what kind of questions are on this test… “You like to hurt small animals.” It doesn't ask if I do it, it asks me if I believe that's true, if I'm not sure that's true, or I deny that's true… The questions seriously suck ass.

Lastly, there's a 150 question test that is all write in. It's things like, “As a painter, do you like to paint flowers, mountains, or skylines?” Notice it didn't ask if I was a painter or if I had artistic skill to paint, just that I AM a painter so what do I like to paint. Then, fifteen questions later, it will ask, “When you are painting a flower, what colors do you make the petals?” Well, gee, if I said I'd paint a mountain, does that mean I go back and change the answer? Right answer is NO YOU DO NOT. You simply have to write up an explanation how I am not a painter, just like in the previous question, and that if I did draw a flower, these are the colors I'd use.

It's all a bunch of subjective bullshit that doesn't actually mean anything and can't be used to accurately describe someone.

At least I don't have to do the CVSA (computer voice stress analysis). It measures how much your voice changes when answering a question. Well, I'm an animated person as it is and my voice reflects that fact. If you ask me something that's not true and it's not a big deal, I'll just give you a flat, “No.” If you ask me something really fucked up, like if I screw animals, I'll give a “Nnnoooooo”. That, however, will come back as a lie according to the computer. Your answers have to be a constant monotone and the exact same as every other time you give a “yes” and “no”.

Both are completely moronic and neither are admissible in court, which is why it's stupid to have us go through these. I'll do what they ask of me to get the process moving forward still, but I don't have to like it

i had one of those once…they gave it to us in basic….i just put the in the middle answer….all of them…straight down….

my dog is freaking hairy….i like to wear black…but she's a white dog…sigh…if only my wife didnt give me those eyes when we first saw the puppy…Kilala…my wife named her….what a nerd….sigh…i married that beautiful nerd…and i'm one too… i really like anime too…and halo…i become a fanboy with anything i become addicted too…and there for xbawks is more better than plaistayshun….and invaderzim….part of my job entails me and my friends sitting around discussing which superhero is better…why…which comics and story arcs prove it…..and there once came a point where i was told to shut up cause i was making everyone look like a nerd….it was that bad….i think i pulled out a refrence to a specific superboy comic book…complete with number and year….i had just seen it the night before on some thing about superman….

and you know what else really grinds my gears?…..when i cant find the droids i'm looking for….

Kilala

Kilala - it means “to recognize” in Tagalog. She Filipino?

dang my job is boring.

All I do is stare at spreadsheets and type in stuff sometimes. During ‘break time’ I do pushups or squats or get out of the building and walk.

lmao! lol!

my family used to be fairly toleratable… but ever since December, they got worse. they now come over and even stay the night without asking me at all.

They just assume that since they're my family that I'd be fine with ANYTHING they do. Even dropping off my hyperactive 5-year-old nephew for me to babysit without even asking me if I had plans.

Never mind that I was actually planning to work on my web comics when I wasn't doing my college homework (the Holiday break arrived at last for my college, about freaking time!). Never mind that I wanted to out to the library and even hang out with my friends later on.

Now thanks to them, my comics hasn't even been updated properly ever since last month.
And whenever I tell them that I actually had plans, they do this whole drama-fest, about how I should be more sensitive about how hard they work and how they couldn't do things unless I did something like watch my nephew for a few hours, blah blah blah.

my family can just go and screw themselves for assuming that my life revolves around their own lives. >=(

All I know is that they better give me some great shit for christmas this year to make up for being such insenstive assholes.

Aurora Moon
my family used to be fairly toleratable… but ever since December, they got worse. they now come over and even stay the night without asking me at all.

They just assume that since they're my family that I'd be fine with ANYTHING they do. Even dropping off my hyperactive 5-year-old nephew for me to babysit without even asking me if I had plans.

Never mind that I was actually planning to work on my web comics when I wasn't doing my college homework (the Holiday break arrived at last for my college, about freaking time!). Never mind that I wanted to out to the library and even hang out with my friends later on.

Now thanks to them, my comics hasn't even been updated properly ever since last month.
And whenever I tell them that I actually had plans, they do this whole drama-fest, about how I should be more sensitive about how hard they work and how they couldn't do things unless I did something like watch my nephew for a few hours, blah blah blah.

my family can just go and screw themselves for assuming that my life revolves around their own lives. >=(

All I know is that they better give me some great shit for christmas this year to make up for being such insenstive assholes.

Turn something positive out of that negative experience.

Like use it as fodder for comics. lol!

kilala is the flying cat from inuyasha….that's my wife's favoritist anime….next to samurai x…..

she's trying to eat my chili's…

dang I hate incompetent co-workers.

I had to re-do her job.

Anyway thats better than asshole co-workers. So I shouldnt be complaining. lol

i just found an inconsitincy in futurama….
the christmas special is on…and they were going up the slopes…and fry says…“look at all the beautiful snow, good thing global warming never happened”
and leela says
“oh it did. But nuclear winter cancelled it out”

however there's an entire episode about how they were only delaying global warming by using ice from haley's comet….and they fix it by moving the earth further from the sun….

i'm that bored….

I had a fight dream…


It all started with a schoolyard fight. The setting was in my old school in the Philippines. The big big soccer field. The combatants were me and this long-haired guy who was slightly taller than me but with same body size all in all. Same level of strength, more or less the same speed, but he has a slight reach advantage.

During the course of the fight, I was kinda hesitant to beat him to the ground. Because for some reason I was scared of getting suspended or expelled. So everytime he punched, I either moved out of the way or blocked. If it was a flurry of punches, I grabbed the underhooks or his neck in a clinch… then release and try to reason… then take more punches - which are some of those punches that get through even though I block majority of them with my arms or with my legs.

Then he rushed with this flurry of punches. I didnt think about reasoning anymore that time. With my right hand, I instinctively grabbed the back of his neck, like a half-clinch… then with my left hand, I threw in about 5 punches to his face and ribs… alternating the hits… which made him look down.

As he looked down, I pushed his head further down. Enough for me to snap on a schoolyard headlock… but I made sure my left arm was dead on in his neck, and my right hand was grabbing my left hand.

I forced him to the ground. And he was gasping for air and begging me to release the lock.

I was like… ARE YOU FUCKING DONE?!? ARE YOU DONE?!? Then he continued to beg me to stop. People dont necessarily tap out in street fights.

I released the hold. I was victorious by submission. I saw his face was red and still catching his breath and holding his neck.

But just as some dreams instantaneously teleport you from one location to the next… the next location was in some school building that had alot of stairs and perhaps 9 or 10 floors. The walls were all made of concrete. Instead of elevators, it was all stairs.

I tried exploring the place… as I explored it, I came across this line of children who are about 6 or 7 years old. The kids suddenly kept on asking questions about the fight such as 'did you get lucky?' ‘will you do it again?’ ‘why did you do it?’ and ‘are you gonna get suspended?’

I just stood there in awe. I didnt answer any questions until the teacher of the kids came along and told them that they're going down the building.

I kept moving up the stairs.

Then I came across one of the guys who taught me in the martial arts gym. “I heard you did something really brutal a couple days ago,” he said.

“It was clean. I didnt spill any blood but stopped him. Please dont say it was really brutal. I tried my best to avoid it. I was in a defensive position for at least 100 punches before I tried anything. Its not that I finished him in a brutal bloody manner,” I replied.

Then switch to next scene: It was ‘sensei’ again together with a whole bunch of other guys I trained with. Still asking the same questions. But trying to make it appear that I will go to jail or be suspended for apparently finishing off the guy in a brutal manner.

Then I kept insisting it was a clean submission.

And then fuck it. It was all a dream and I woke up. lol

stupid dog….you chewed through your collar…you chewed through your leash….i buy you a chew toy….you sniffed it and left it alone….i'm gonna chew through your neck shortly…

edit for spelling

Did the psych test and all, so that's over, obviously. Now it's the polygraph tomorrow.


DAMN SNOW, STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE NO FOOD IN THE HOUSE AND FIVE BUCKS FOR THE DOLLAR MENU SOMEWHERE BUT I CANNOT EVEN DO THAT AS THE SNOW JUST WILL NOT STOP!!!!!!!!!

some admins/mods of this site hate me.

Its just fucking retarded to hate me because of what I did loooong long time ago back in 2003 when I was sort of an annoyance in the forums.

All I do is try to make things a little interesting and they lock up my threads. This is the only forums I saw with retarded rules like that (perhaps only apply to me). I wasnt spamming or dicking around people here.

I've changed. Newer members of this site know me for being a nice guy and all.

Some stupid idiot admin/mods (you know who you are) just feel good whenever they can exercise ‘power’ in some forum. Because they cannot exercise any form of ‘power’ in their real lives as they feel a sense of powerlessness in their real lives because of a lingering defeatist/loser mentality in their heads. While at the same time berating me or ridiculing me every single time I lend a piece of my mind.

Its all about making up for being a LOSER in real life.

I understand. lol!

And yep this post may be edited or deleted later on.

Kyupol, aren't you married or something?
Doesn't that put things in perspective? As in, wtf do you care what they do to your posts on this forum?

mlai
Kyupol, aren't you married or something?

lmao! (*dies of laughter*)

Grow up Kyupol.
Man, seriously.
You know we like you, but this hurt feelings stuff is more acceptable in much younger people.

Ewww…feelings!


Anyway, done with my polygraph. Let me tell you all something…that guy really pissed me the hell off, too. He started acting like I was a huge asshole and was getting demanding.

At least I only hit on two questions, but the two questions that I hit on floored me when he said what they were: Illegal drugs and drinking on the job.

I drink once every three to four months because I'm just not big into the booze and going out. I've also never taken any illicit drugs, including marijuana, though because of training I know what it smells like in both just smoked and fresh forms.

Finally figured out that the “illegal drugs” wasn't to “illegal drugs”, it was that I had taken an 800mg of Ibuprofen in the academy back in October, which I had forgotten is a prescription dosage when in a single tablet *RME*

The drinking on the job thing is retarded, too. He asked me, “Have you ever had any alcohol when on the job in the past five years.” Of course I said that I hadn't, because I haven't, and he asked if we had any office parties where we were on the clock and drinking. Well, no, because most of our employees are free lancers and we don't make a habit out of throwing parties because of that…like ever. So he asked if I have a cubicle or an office…I was like, “WTF?” So I let him know that I do it ALL FROM MY HOME on my computer and e-mail the finished product or ship out the DVD/CD when needed at the post office. He groans and then asks, “Oh, at any time did you have a project and either almost finished or while working on it, go to your refrigerator and have a beer?” That, of course, made me say, “Oh, yeah, when I was working on the website I had a Blue Moon.” His response? “I guess I should have asked if you had any alcohol on the job against company policy.” So I just told him, “The answer would still be no since my father generally doesn't care when it comes to me and the computer work.”

Of course he throws a bit of a fuss about it, but says he'll just hand score the rest of the sheet now, but everything else looks good.

Dickwad

My snakes are shedding and it seems painful because they're making freaked out whistly noises. I forgot to give them a bath beforehand… =(

I think you'll be fine, My old albino ball python shed a few times while we were on vacation.

I'm glad to have an uncle who is sorta like my ‘political adviser’. :)

He has offered me very intelligent advice on how to juggle family and work politics. Most of the stuff he says I already know. Though only in theory that was learned from books and reading the internet.

He learned it the hard way. More ‘hands on’ which meant more failures in the past.

Now his track record got him at least pretty ahead in life. He is a senior level accountant in his company. In Philippine Pesos, his salary is slightly lower than mine but back in the Philippines that is enough to afford him a better place than where I live.

Anyway he was very helpful in advising me on how to deal with other family members.

Thats how it is in Asian families. We have to worry about familial politics. Though I may sound racist by saying its only ‘Asian’, it doesnt matter what racial/religious/or cultural background you may have. Familial politics is a very vital skill that can differentiate success or failure in life.

For instance, I have heard stories of people in their late teens/early 20s who just leave their homes because they couldnt stand their parents. Often ending up in low-paying dead end jobs or as homeless people with no skills.

I could have easily taken the same route at age 14. I just didnt get along with my parents. The relationship was just TOXIC. Originally I had a plan to run away from home then get myself adapted by some children's center in the Philippines that was run by the Catholic Church.

However that plan didnt come into realization because I figured that it would take alot of sacrifice on my part to SIGNIFICANTLY lower my standard of living. I'd be eating poorly-made rice and soup mixture that passes off as ‘chicken soup’ for the most part. And maybe things like fish and meat would be considered ‘luxury’.

During that time, I was from a middle class family background which had a decent amount of luxury. Things like air-conditioned rooms, video games, were the stuff that kept me ‘tied down’. That is why as time passed, I tried my best to avoid getting tied down by luxury and conveniences. I refuse to be brainwashed by video games like MMORPGs and try to ‘keep up with the Joneses’. I also refuse to indulge in too much drugs and alcohol and blow my money on prostitutes. Those kinds of behaviors will be your enslavement. Especially if you do not have the means.

I drive a car that I bought for $2000, and my cabinet has at the most, 5 pairs of clothes. I havent bought clothes in YEARS and if I do buy clothes, I get it from Salvation Army or Value Village. I refuse to be enslaved by overpriced brand names. Dammit. How the fuck can a SWEATER cost in the hundreds of dollars because of some silly old brand name. Its the same thing. Its probably made in some sweat shop in China or India while these fat cat corporations rake in profits while brainwashing the youth that they will ‘look cool’ or be ‘popular’ by wearing their products.

They dont care if the youth will act like ‘gengstas’ and ‘hos’.


Anyway…


Politics. Is a balancing act of giving concessions and saying ‘NO’… which can yield beautiful results like make friends out of former ‘enemies’ (or at least get benefits from them).

Things like ‘love’ which is sorta magicalized by organized religions and big corporations is only a product of political/social skill. A mere manipulation of people's emotions.

Right now, in dealing with my parents, I've sent mixed messages and created distance. Which is actually successful because nowadays they've been more ‘warm’ and ‘loving’ to me. The strategy is basically create a long period of silence and withrawal, then after about a month or week or any time duration, shower them with attention or gifts… or talk to them for hours on the phone while inserting religious tones in my dialog and with a calm tone of voice.

Same thing with distant relatives. I've succeeded in improving relations with other family members.

Maybe thats the reason I was put here on earth. To be a unifying force in the family. Now I feel important. lol!

Someone
I also refuse to indulge in too much drugs and alcohol and blow my money on prostitutes

rofl :)

my rant is that i'm overworked and my eyes have sunken into my face like blackholes

The best part of my New Years Eve is the Twilight Zone marathon. I have no place to go and nothing else to do…

I just ate the last Chinese food of 2007 and about to take the last shower of 2007.

Hard to imagine that this time last year I was in New Jersey with my girlfriend at a party with more celebrities than I can even remember seeing…

First New Years Eve I'm actually not doing anything…damn…

I have a rant…
Why is it that the music in clubs or for live bands is always turned up so f**ken loud? The sound becomes nothing more than a roaring shriek, it's horrible.
Do people who man amplifiers have no hearing or just no brain?

It's like old people who have all the colours on their TVs set to super saturation mode… and turned up to the highest level too unsurprisingly.

another new year started alone….but it doesnt sound like the guy up stairs started it alone……

post. script.

ode to windows vista:

i hate you windows vista.
i hate you with all i am.
o, it takes such skill,
to design something that fails at life.
alls you have to do is play my anime.
but no,
your latest update screws over WMP,
saying something about media sharing has to be activated,
and then freezing up.
i hate you windows vista.
i hate you with all i am.

post. post. script.

i think my computer is about to crash…if i never see you again…i have always loved you….

I don't have a job for 3 months. And I'd make comics the whole time if it didn't mean getting evicted and not having food. stupid jobs.

You know how I was complaining about eye strain? While I still think that's some of the problem…I do believe there is something else wrong…at least with my left eye. I always have bits of mucus coming out of it (I'm sure you all loved hearing that), the eyelids are a little swollen, and it just feels really strange when I shut it. (Takes me some time to fall asleep because of it.)

I'm starting to think I either have an eye infection, really bad eye allergies, or something else. Maybe I over-worked it so bad it's about to fall out! =D

I also have another problem that's even more worrying….but I don't think it's something you guys want to hear about. XD

Im pretty much happy that DD has grown to a great extent since it was revived after the cataclysm (more member for us woppeee!). I know that im not as frequent to the forums as i was before, but still, the number of morons in the forums just keep on rising.
Its just an opinion. Im not sure if its just a factor of how many members weve got (cmon near 50,000, theres bound to be a few hundred irks) or the nicer ones arent just as frequent here as before.
I cant complain about it though, ive been to several forums and they have far more worse members than here.

I'm angry that everything I'm angry about seems pathetic in comparison with other people's problems. Being either happy or angry about this contradicts everything I was raised to believe was right. This is making me doubt my upbringing which in turn is making me unsure of what's real and what isn't.

Stop making me question my own existence you bastards.

Edit: I just realised that this gives me something to be legitimately pissed off about. Never mind then.