just when you think you have the pattern down. and you think you know you're upcoming schedule, so you can finally settle down. you get some unexpected news,and it throws you for a loop.

on top of that, i forgot the other half of my rant.

If life was easy I wouldn't get any satisfaction from doing anything.

I'll just keep telling myself that. Forty-three years and I'm almost ready to believe it.

Coping mechanisms and positive self-talk. It's better than nothing. :)

I wish there was a ‘rate/critique my website design/layout’ place… They've got tons of actual human help for art and writing but not websites…

I know of one person who knows lots about webdesign i could pester about it but it's her default layout lol!

SpANG

ozoneocean
I had an amazingly bad Migraine headacheagain.

I have to say, I NEVER used to get headaches until I started working on my computer all the time. Any way you can take a total break from the computer for a few days and see if it helps?

Actually I've always had them, long before I started using computers. -_-

I have less of them at the moment because my work forces me to sleep regular hours.

But even so, they still pop up occasionally. Can't stop the buggers. Fenn's suggestion about not stopping work is interesting in that I think one of the triggers might be when you have less stress all of a sudden… -on Wednesday I found out I actually had three months to do my tax return, not one night, as I first thought and had been worrying about for a while. Later that night the headache started. Maybe there's a connection? Stress makes the body release a lot of hormones that have different effects on the body. And if it suddenly stops producing them, it may come as a it of a shock.

bravo1102
Coping mechanisms and positive self-talk. It's better than nothing. :)

i think you know better than anyone what i'm talking about.

postive–i wont pay taxes. and i get extra pay.

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extra

my wifes hard drive crashed today. and all i did was turn off the computer last night, to save on my electric bill. so for a while it wouldnt even load the bios screen. so i went in and reset all the hardware. well then i started getting the bios screen, but it still couldnt see the harddrive.

so i just decided to leave it off, cause that's as far as my technical knowledge goes. well i turn it back on about 6 hours later, and i get the “boot normal, or boot in safe mode screen” when i selected normal, it tried to go then said “ntoskrnl.exe missing or corrupt” to which i decide i'll run the install cd and put it in repair mode, and repair the entire boot directory.

turns out, the cd is in indiana. she kept it in her cd case with her music, and thought she could use it to fix her parents computer. (which is a 32 bit system, and ours is a 64) and left it in the disc drive. so i'm boned.

I am reasonably intoxicated and cannot sleep yet because of it. Oh, that…and it's hot as hell. The fan does help, but not completely. I want more items to make a fighter in SC4, too…which fucking OWNS.

I'd also like to start dating again…which probably won't happen for a very long time

My tablet broke and refuses to work. I mean, the other way around. It refused to work, and it broke.
lol

SO. That means my pages have to be black and white for a while :\

But, at least I feel like drawing.
Woot!

Recently my brother's been coughing up blood and I'm afraid various parts in his throat will become infected and will bloat up and he'll suffocate over night.

Woo I'm optimistic.

seventy2
it tried to go then said “ntoskrnl.exe missing or corrupt” to which i decide i'll run the install cd and put it in repair mode, and repair the entire boot directory.

turns out, the cd is in indiana. she kept it in her cd case with her music, and thought she could use it to fix her parents computer. (which is a 32 bit system, and ours is a 64) and left it in the disc drive. so i'm boned.

There's gotta be someone else you know who has a disk, or has access to one… Maybe you could just search for the application itself online. Or… worst case senario make the internal drive an external and use another computer to fix it and/or remove files.

i've taken to alternative means to find the disc. all my friends that still have xp, are only running the 32 bit system, as 64 came out late in the game.

Is there anything I can do to make Drunk Duck even fucking slower than it already is????

Ahhhh… so it's not just my agonizingly slow internet connection?

i'm not having a problem. with anything other than my wife's d@@@ computer. i'm beginning to believe that it may not be the harddrive. if i had a means to power up hte harddrive without hte computer, i would do so. (as this bamf of a laptop i have now has sata connections inside the usb connections)

also, maybe it's just that my internet is so fast, as i used the one invented by dan quail, and not al gore.

I just can't seem to hold on to readers no matter how hard I try. It seems like no matter how much my artwork or writing ability improves, I just can't hold peoples attention for very long. And it drives me nuts. Granted, for a first try I've done exceptionally well, but the inner self-abusive taskmaster in my mind just won't let up. There's always this little part of my brain that keeps beating me over the head telling me I'm just not good enough at this stuff to succeed or have my audience grow. And even though I'm not obsessed with pageviews ( I'm actually purposely ignoring them because of this stupid little voice in my head. ), on the rare occasions I do look at them to see if my audience has grown any, that little voice just keeps on jabbering about how I should have more people reading for the number of pages I've made.

It makes me want to stab a brush pen into my ear to see if I can kill the little bastard, just to shut him up. If this is what being driven to succeed is like for everyone else, I'm starting on thinking that being a lazy slacker could be a great career path. I don't like having an obnoxious little self-doubting voice in my head telling me I suck.

mechanical_lullaby
Recently my brother's been coughing up blood and I'm afraid various parts in his throat will become infected and will bloat up and he'll suffocate over night.

Woo I'm optimistic.

Whoa. Um, he should see a doctor. Like definitely. O_o

As for me? I'm at the age where I'm supposed to be deciding my future- like university and all that stuff… but I'm getting a total blank. I have no idea which university or even what kind of major. If it's anything artsy I have to make a portfolio, which I know needs several months to prepare.
Hmmm… maybe I should just work at McDonalds for the rest of my life. >_>

Jellomix
Hmmm… maybe I should just work at McDonalds for the rest of my life. >_>

Well, that's better than my plan, which includes dying on the streets because I have no money.

lba
stuff about losing readers.

it's not that you lost a bunch of readers, just that you lost me. (not your fault at all, i've become bored with everything, and the only comic i've kept up to date with is Gods of Arkeelan) and i would everyday go thru your entire archive.

not really, but i would check multiple times a day because i was hoping you'd update twice somedays when you were exceptionally funny.

Hippie Van

Jellomix
Hmmm… maybe I should just work at McDonalds for the rest of my life. >_>

Well, that's better than my plan, which includes dying on the streets because I have no money.

Ouch. I'm not sure if that's the best plan… but good luck with it.
Seriously, depends where you live but that's usually easier said than done. @_@

Jellomix
As for me? I'm at the age where I'm supposed to be deciding my future- like university and all that stuff… but I'm getting a total blank. I have no idea which university or even what kind of major. If it's anything artsy I have to make a portfolio, which I know needs several months to prepare.

Just bug your nicest stuff together and hope for the best. That always works for me :)

As for Uni, careers etc… Think about the industry you'd like to work in (not necessarily the specific job), find Universities that you like that offer good courses related to that field, and see which ones you like the most :)

lba
I just can't seem to hold on to readers no matter how hard I try. It seems like no matter how much my artwork or writing ability improves, I just can't hold peoples attention for very long. And it drives me nuts. Granted, for a first try I've done exceptionally well, but the inner self-abusive taskmaster in my mind just won't let up. There's always this little part of my brain that keeps beating me over the head telling me I'm just not good enough at this stuff to succeed or have my audience grow. And even though I'm not obsessed with pageviews ( I'm actually purposely ignoring them because of this stupid little voice in my head. ), on the rare occasions I do look at them to see if my audience has grown any, that little voice just keeps on jabbering about how I should have more people reading for the number of pages I've made.

It makes me want to stab a brush pen into my ear to see if I can kill the little bastard, just to shut him up. If this is what being driven to succeed is like for everyone else, I'm starting on thinking that being a lazy slacker could be a great career path. I don't like having an obnoxious little self-doubting voice in my head telling me I suck.

I've read a few of your rants on your comic with my time here, and i've honestly always wanted to tell you that you get waaaay to much stress out of it for what you get back. :'( I strongly agree with the statement that ‘Webcomics should be fun for the artist as well as the readers.’'

You have a lot of drive to do last words, it's awesome. But with the state you say now why not put it on haitus and actually experiment with another comic? Go all out with trying to get readers knowing it's just an experiment- no harm done. And either proving the voice wrong, that you don't suck you just needed a change of strategy. Or prove it right and it disappears having nothing to complain about anymore.
(p.s. make it a fetish based comic if you're out of ideas, they always get readers);)

That's a good idea Skull :)
He should join my collab and one of his characters could be a demon ghosty thing… or a genii or something?

Hahaha, I work too slowly though. There, that's my rant. I'm tooo slowwww.

Too many ideas. The muse grabs me, sits me in a chair and makes me work on something totally different for 12 hours a day for three days. I discovered Comic Book Creator and it's so much fun… like Indesign or Quark for comics… woo-hoo. Instant gratification.

Then the “Damn this sucks”, “Holy of Holies, this is way over the top”, creeps in.

And my webcomic lies abandoned and alone while I frantically work on this one.

On the good side, I have started testing to find out why I blacked out back in June and smashed up my car and head.

Keep readers, shit I want to get them. Maybe it's time to trot out the rampant and gratuitous nudity.

Skullbie
I've read a few of your rants on your comic with my time here, and i've honestly always wanted to tell you that you get waaaay to much stress out of it for what you get back. :'( I strongly agree with the statement that ‘Webcomics should be fun for the artist as well as the readers.’'

You have a lot of drive to do last words, it's awesome. But with the state you say now why not put it on haitus and actually experiment with another comic? Go all out with trying to get readers knowing it's just an experiment- no harm done. And either proving the voice wrong, that you don't suck you just needed a change of strategy. Or prove it right and it disappears having nothing to complain about anymore.
(p.s. make it a fetish based comic if you're out of ideas, they always get readers);)

The weird thing is, I actually do enjoy doing all of the work for it, that voice just bugs the living crap out of me all the time. Generally, I'm pretty low stress in reality. No matter what it's about though, that obnoxious little voice is telling me “not good enough”. Even with things like freelancing. I'm way ahead of the curve on having commission work still being in the first couple years of school, but it still prattles on at me anyway. And I am toying with other ideas since I've been wanting to play with full storylines for quite a while. Either way, I've got an enforced vacation coming up in the next week or two since I lose my computer when I move. I'll probably spend that time working on other stuff.

I get that little voice too. It's why I never do anything worthwhile, I always tear myself down before I even get started.

And then people tell me to just get over it, as if it has a fucking switch I can just flick on or off. And they're just making it worse, because it makes me feel like there's something wrong with my brain because I can't find the switch.

ozoneocean
Just bug your nicest stuff together and hope for the best. That always works for me :)

As for Uni, careers etc… Think about the industry you'd like to work in (not necessarily the specific job), find Universities that you like that offer good courses related to that field, and see which ones you like the most :)

Ah, thanks for the advice! Now time to make “nice stuff”, lol.
(I am so unproductive when it comes to art…)D=

Bah! i can't seem to get my project wonderful ad to align right on my comic, it just slips the comic page down >_<
r
EDIT: hmph, project wonderful? more liek project AidsFag.

I switch from a skyscraper to a banner, banner is easy.

i think one of my friends, is going to commit suicide. when? i have no clue, but he's teetering on the edge. the thing's he's been writing, the last time we talked. and i can't get ahold of him lately.
also, i can't just drive over to his house and smack him around till he comes to his senses. as he is someone from highschool, in indiana.
i hope everything turns out alright……
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also, i think that if DD is going to be doing maintenance that is going to stop us from logging on and all, that they should have a page up that tells us.

seventy2
i think one of my friends, is going to commit suicide. when? i have no clue, but he's teetering on the edge. the thing's he's been writing, the last time we talked. and i can't get ahold of him lately.
also, i can't just drive over to his house and smack him around till he comes to his senses. as he is someone from highschool, in indiana.
i hope everything turns out alright……
——-

also, i think that if DD is going to be doing maintenance that is going to stop us from logging on and all, that they should have a page up that tells us.

Hope your friend hangs in there.

I know how it feels like. Its not a good feeling. And if not for the fear of God I would have done it. It was just that thought of eternally burning in hell for murder (suicide or abortion is murder is “thou shall not kill”) that stopped me.

At least that bought me some time to get my head screwed on straight.

kyupol

seventy2
i think one of my friends, is going to commit suicide.

Hope your friend hangs in there.

Ummm…

That reminds me of the time people were leaving condolences on the Nightgig site for someone good who had died… Someone said:
“May heart is with the family, I've given all I can afford”*

…A little more that most people could afford…

*Or words to that effect.

Okay, I've done my summer homework, read the books I had to read, took good notes in textbook, and I'm still unexpectantly behind with just a week of break left.

What the hell.