hurf.

Skullbie
So my mom actually wants me to see a therapist for this weird psuedo self-hate/depression thing I've got going on. I mean I know what's wrong with me, why i feel this way, but can an unbelievably overpriced visit to a shrink tell me how to stop it? -_-
The only way I'm going to kill that poison that infests me is to let others into my shell to help me fight it, but they keep fucking hurting me and making that poison thicker and deadlier…

ahh that sounds familiar to me, it happens a lot when the others don't get your point of view. In fact sounds like you let your mother into your shell to help you fight it and she ended up suggesting the therapy thing, which only made the poison thicker. I don't know about all parents, but with certain parents you can't share subtle/complicated stuff because they get all worried and treat the problem as if it was some sort of plague and all you need is an exterminator.
Have you thought of solutions? You could try using your creative comicking mind for your problems too :P
I know it sounds silly but sometimes it work

ozoneocean

seventy2
it seems everytime i go to the dentist, they wanna pull my wisdom teeth…

Someone once said that the only reason wisdom teeth exist is to keep dentists in business.

Pineapple
I wounder what the hell could be on a pizza hard enough to chip a tooth? I suggest you don't eat there again (but if you made it yourself, kind of your own fault).

It was at a place with their fancy “wood fired pizza oven”. What's so special about that I have no idea… Every pizza place seems to have one these days anyway, great massive space wasting eyesores…

Anyway, I have no idea what it was. Maybe a really hard bit of crust? A seed from one of the things on it? No idea.

First of all, I didn't know it was your birthday the other day. I am offended you didn't tell me! So for that, you get no happy birthday wishes from me. Although I guess it doesn't matter until next year, does it?

Second of all, I've chipped my tooth on a piece of pizza. I was kind of pissed because I thought it was someone else's tooth already on my pizza until I noticed a missing chunk of enamel in my mouth.



@Skullbie: I know how you feel. Well, I assume so.
I was majorly depressed quite a few different times of my life. I've become anxious and blindly cynical like a reclusive madman. Even still I find people wretched scum of vile reptoids who poison and desecrate our once sweet and beautiful mother earth with their technological crap.

As far as damage to your self-esteem, I'm not sure that DD is the place to find solace or comfort. People are to facetious and screwed up here. If you need someone to talk to, I'd be willing to listen now I sound soppy and over-empathetic, darn it!.

But in the meantime, all I can offer is to rub your tummy.

Locoma
Have you thought of solutions? You could try using your creative comicking mind for your problems too :P
I know it sounds silly but sometimes it work

…that might be a really cool idea actually, I think i'll try it. Thank you.

And mom suggested it in a genuinely loving way, a road block she realized she couldn't help me over as a parent.
But I do know tons of kids that have parents doing exactly what you said. :C

@Arashi
Haha you made me lol Arashi. thanks. And you don't sound soppy, just that you know a thing a two about it. ^^

Skullbie
@Croi
Yeah all versions of norton besides 07 are slow as hell. -_-
07 is okay.

Actually, the problem is that it will not update and when I download any files form the Symantic website, the files claim to be corrupted.

Croi Dhubh

Skullbie
@Croi
Yeah all versions of norton besides 07 are slow as hell. -_-
07 is okay.

Actually, the problem is that it will not update and when I download any files form the Symantic website, the files claim to be corrupted.

Your new best friend. Low profile, low memory, regular updates.

I was enjoying myself eating chips down at the beach today, when I was accosted by FREAKBEAK!



Than, after stealing some food from a NORMAL bird, Freakbeak turned into DEVILGULL!



Spoiled the moment… That ugly mutant split-beak wierdo turned my stomach.

Yes, I'm prejudiced against disabled birds. So what? -_-

ozoneocean
I was enjoying myself eating chips down at the beach today, when I was accosted by FREAKBEAK!



Than, after stealing some food from a NORMAL bird, Freakbeak turned into DEVILGULL!



Spoiled the moment… That ugly mutant split-beak wierdo turned my stomach.

Yes, I'm prejudiced against disabled birds. So what? -_-

I think I'm in love… Yes, I have a thing for disabled birds. So what? -_-

I'm really pissed off at people responsible for handling rodents that get killed on the road. They think they can solve the problem by simply tossing them right fucking next to the sidewalk, let it rot, and hope that people won't mind the noxious smell.

This is the 2nd time I had to walk past the rotting rodent and I can't stand the horrendous smell it lets out (Worse, it's really hot summer)- not like the sight was already bad enough (It got its head splatched).

I'd send a complaint to school, but they'd just say that it's not their problem since it's not on the school property.

If you're going to say that you're practicing anatomy, and you've been saying that for well over two years, you'd damn well better have something to show for it that isn't a poorly drawn anime snout and characters that can't maintain proportion. Ever.

I'M HOME!!!!!


more to come later

I just watched this movie called Zaldong Tisoy (Tagalog movie). The drama, comedy, romance, and action was done well. But I just happened to wonder how in the world does someone who lived all his life in the streets… become suddenly proficient with firearms (take out 20 bad guys all by himself in a firefight).

I'd understand proficiency in using the fists if you grew up in the streets and been in countless street fights. You know… you can develop that skill over time even with no formal martial arts training and just through getting into fights all the time. I saw a video called Felony Fights in where there was a MMA trained fighter versus an experienced street fighter. The street fighter lost but was still able to hurt his formally trained opponent.

But guns are different. Unless you're a reincarnated soldier or something you'd just be shooting them naturally. lol!

The only thing a man should take seriously is the fact that nothing is to be taken seriously.

That being said there are some things that get past my irreverence.

Did you ever get the feeling that you could paint the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel and get nothing, but another could do a finger painting on the back of a matchbook cover and be hailed as the greatest artist of all time?

I feel like that sometimes.

You know a lot of times when one looks back at their old comics they abandoned for remakes of them you would find their stories' more interesting than any remakes you could come up with…but I keep reading over the last version of VP that has been left on hiatus (this version: http://www.vermillionworks.com/vp/vp2.0/vp2.0.htm)and, save for a few scenes, as a whole I am just bored to tears by it whenever I reread it.

What kinda sucks is I had already announced at my DevArt journal that I would probably just continue that version after VP X was finished, as not only it is pretty easy to move on with that story with new ideas, but it would probably just be better than forcing myself to come up with ANOTHER version….and people still go back and read it so I must've done SOMETHING right…right? Maybe knowing what was right about it would help me move on with it. XD

…but I guess this is what happens when you're a decent comic artist but a not-so-decent story maker. And to be perfectly honest, I haven't decided where exactly Vampire Phantasm is headed in plot. =/ I mean I know where the shortish story I'm WORKING ON is headed….but after that..? Uuggghh.

It's a long road ahead. lol!

I just watched this Tagalog documentary about mangkukulams.

http://www.kabayancentral.com/video/others/cpotapnmakpki.html

Mangkukulam's closest translation to English means “witch”. But if used in a sentence, it can also refer to a healer.

In that documentary, there were 2 reformed “bad guys” and 2 healers who were interviewed.

Bad guy 1 - He inherited his skills from his bloodline. His favorite tactic is to make you unable to shit or piss… so that all that waste accumulates in your body until you eventually die. He operated like some kind of paid assassin. You pay him to get rid of someone who has wronged you and the target will just die a painful death. He stopped doing it because he felt guilty.

Bad guy 2 - She gained her power after finding a book about dark secrets from her grandparents who died. She wouldnt disclose technical details but she said that to gain power, she had to copy a portion of the book then lie on it from 6 pm to 6 am on a Good Friday. She was happy with it for awhile. Hurting those who wronged her and her friends. When she realized she was getting burned when entering a church, she stopped doing it.

Healer 1 - He uses paper, pen, and boiling water to heal you. He writes some incantations in the paper, rubs it on the ‘patient’, then puts in in a burning kettle. And then you're healed. He claims 90% success rate and he never asks for money to do it because he says his skills are from the Lord. His powers were given to him by 3 entities who looked like children who were dressed in white.

Healer 2 - He became a healer after his cousin was targetted by a mangkukulam. His cousin had cockroaches and worms coming out of his body for no reason. As well as blood coming out from the eyes, ears, nose, as well as fever symptoms. He seeked help from an old man who was a healer then his cousin was healed. After that, he asked the old man if he can teach him. And then he started going on a healing quest. Again. No asking for money.

I was just amazed when stores selling “agimats” (charms) and other “pangontras” (lame trans: counterspell) were shown in the documentary. The healer being interviewed said that those you see that are readily available are not as effective as those that arent sold. The cheap ones are for low level ones and wont work on the “A class” types of mangkukulams.

Like wtf?!? AGIMATS ARE OPENLY SOLD IN THE PHILIPPINES!!! GO GRAB SOME!!!

He claimed that the forces of dark outnumber the forces of light. And that there is this big spiritual battlefield going on. He also said that if you wanna be a healer, its not something to showoff in a party and make you feel special. He said its a stressful job that you shouldnt be doing if all youre after is money. And those who ask money are either fake or work for the dark forces.



My comment: I have my doubts as usual. But I wonder. Why would ABS-CBN network, one of the most credible news outlets in the Philippines, fabricate such a thing?

I'm leaning on the idea that the Philippines (as well as Japan, Korea, Southeast Asia, and parts of China) originally was part of the Lemurian continent that had a high number of mystics, mediums, etc. I wonder if these mangkukulams possess ancient technology. I dont think it is magic, but rather an advanced spiritual technology, that the Lemurians had.

I think there is a scientific explanation for it. But the scientific explanation is something that our limited physical sciences are incapable of explaining as of this point.

So much horrible stuff is happening to me right now, all ironic.
I'm swimming in an ocean trying to keep my head above the water, but I keep getting sucked under. I gotta keep paddling since safe dry land is right there, and drowning not an option.

Also I hope this emo phase ends soon, sure metaphors are neat to use but I miss my old happy ‘lol whut?!’ self.



EDIT: shit i'm so sorry! I thought it was some random non-DD comic.God i suck.

I'm in the middle of working on a semihuge 3d animation (more shader than geometry heavy, which is what makes it so hard), and the entire thing is REALLY reliant on perfect time, since it has to sync up with parts of some music. But because I have to splice it all in with other clips, I don't know exactly how long I'm going to have to have it render for. This means that I'll have to go with the longest possible estimate.

Not only that, but there are some dead spots in the music I'll need to edit out, which I am COMPLETELY unfamiliar with doing. Even MORE frustrating is that some of the clips I need I need to actually figure out how to get, since there are no high enough resolution versions online and at present I can not capture them myself.

All this for about 1m30s of video.

Skullbie
I'm swimming in an ocean trying to keep my head above the water, but I keep getting sucked under. I gotta keep paddling since safe dry land is right there, and drowning not an option.

I don't like the ocean. Things in it are scary.

skoolmunkee

Skullbie
I'm swimming in an ocean trying to keep my head above the water, but I keep getting sucked under. I gotta keep paddling since safe dry land is right there, and drowning not an option.

I don't like the ocean. Things in it are scary.

Dolphins aren't scary :C

so i got wasted last night. and it was good. i was at a club. danced with all the girls and i got three phone numbers, one girl wanted to take me home with her. my buddy stopped me and told me she prolly had an std(s). then i spent the night hitting on a girl named vera. cute. and when i decided being sober was a better idea. i started drinking water. when i was less drunk than before, my buddy decided it was time to get really drunk…and that was the first bad decision of the night.(morning) when i was good and trashed again, i found my cellphone. for some reason i started going thru it, and found an old text message from my (ex)wife. it made me think of what she's always said, and so i forwarded it to her. to my surprise, she replied. and then i replied, then she asked if i was drunk. so i called her, and spent (apparently) an hour on the phone, crying about what she's done to me, and how it hurt me. i dont know how my buddy got her number, but he called her and talked with her to clarify what i was saying. apparently he was on the phone with her for like an hour. and i cried. i dont know why i was so depressed. granted alcohol is a depressant. and then i woke up at 2 pm, got taco bell, picked up my car from the club half an hour away, and then came home to play on the computers….

Damn, sev - glad your back home safe!
But you be careful with them benders, 'kay?
My little bro wants to have a drinky night sometime soon, before his tour of duty starts, and I think some drunken calls to exes are in his future, too. You have a lot in common.

anonymousposterchild

skoolmunkee

Skullbie
I'm swimming in an ocean trying to keep my head above the water, but I keep getting sucked under. I gotta keep paddling since safe dry land is right there, and drowning not an option.

I don't like the ocean. Things in it are scary.

Dolphins aren't scary :C

They are if they shoot lasers from their eyes!!! or if they have the face of Willem Dafoe

The ocean only scars me when I'm swimming in it… Big waves terrify me, I admit it. -_-

Looking at it is cool. Sailing on it is great fun! :)
Swimming around near big dumping waves, or even swells that look like they'll turn out that way is not fun.

ozoneocean
The ocean only scars me when I'm swimming in it… Big waves terrify me, I admit it. -_-

Looking at it is cool. Sailing on it is great fun! :)
Swimming around near big dumping waves, or even swells that look like they'll turn out that way is not fun.

Yeah that's pretty much how I feel. I like the ocean and all but I wouldn't want to swim in it.

I don't like to swim in dark lakes and stuff either. I keep imagining tentacle monsters and dead bodies.


here's my rant!

When I get home my dog knows it's me, because she knows what my car sounds like. So she get soooo wiggly and excited and if I'm unloading groceries (like I was today) I'll let her out the front door to prance and sniff around the cul-de-sac. but I hate when I'm all “Union, time to go back in” and she runs away and goes and pees in someone else's front yard.

skoolmunkee

ozoneocean
The ocean only scars me when I'm swimming in it… Big waves terrify me, I admit it. -_-

Looking at it is cool. Sailing on it is great fun! :)
Swimming around near big dumping waves, or even swells that look like they'll turn out that way is not fun.

Yeah that's pretty much how I feel. I like the ocean and all but I wouldn't want to swim in it.

I don't like to swim in dark lakes and stuff either. I keep imagining tentacle monsters and dead bodies.


here's my rant!

When I get home my dog knows it's me, because she knows what my car sounds like. So she get soooo wiggly and excited and if I'm unloading groceries (like I was today) I'll let her out the front door to prance and sniff around the cul-de-sac. but I hate when I'm all “Union, time to go back in” and she runs away and goes and pees in someone else's front yard.

My daughter does the same thing!
INFURIATING!

Ahem.

A rant.

FREAKIN' SEASONAL ALLERGIES GOD DAMN HELL WHALE NOISES CRAP FACE.

TheMidge28
My daughter does the same thing!
INFURIATING!

I was eating a piece of bread and I choked on it. INFURIATING!

Fuck you, my lack of self control.

Fuck you utterly.

Wanted to see Kids in the Hall with my ex this May, down in the Detroit, but the minimum ticket price is $105, and they kinda peak at close to $200.

Probably just going to veg at her place and watch the DVDs, I guess.

so I had the idea to save some money and have my wife trim my hair.
Well…
worst idea ever.
My wife hacked my hair so badly…
I had to shave it down completely.
I am 6'5" 250lb bald white guy.
I feel like Lenny from Of Mice and Men all I need is a pair of overhalls.