Oh my stars, I think I'm crazy.

Long story made less long, I discovered that no matter what I do, I will not able to reach an A* for my Biology GCSE. And GCSE's are like big deal, qualifacations and everything. So the best I could get is an A.

“But isn't an A good enough.”

That's irrelevant. The thing is that I went through the five stages of the Kubler-Ross model.

Denial: “Wait, what? Let me check that again.”
Anger: (Swear words and punching)
Bargaining: “I should talk to my teacher and see if I can do it again.”
Depression: “This sucks, why?”
Acceptance: “Fine, A.”

If I treat school subjects in the same regard as death and tragedy, then…

:/

kyupol
call me insane all you want.

You only validate everything I've believed in all along.

I am me. I am free.

Ok, you're insane.

The shrieking phantasms living in my walls prove my crackpot theories right as well, but you don't see me getting all huffy about it.

No, you're insane.

WE ALL ARE INSANE… MOUHAHAHHAHAHAHHA!

The Large Hadron Collider… which has a 1/50,000,000 chance of creating either a microsingularity (black hole), a new form of dangerous matter, or ripping a hole in the fabric of space time. Any one of these is a potential extinction level event.

I agree the odds are small, but on the other hand… once you say “oops!” you've already passed the event horizon. There are no take-backs. You've just doomed all life on Earth… as well as the Earth. Is that worth it? I don't particularly like the idea of these scientists playing the lottery with my life (and all of yours) every time they use it.

Now, had they said, “we have explored ways to safeguard against this and feel the best way to move forward is to construct this thing on either Pluto or Charon” I'd feel a little differently. But they're instead spinning a revolver pointed at the Earth that has 50,000,000 chambers, overlooking the fact that in Russian Roulette, the bullet could be in the very first chamber.

What good is anything they can find out for us with this thing using it on Earth if there is nobody left to benefit from it? Imagine if you were told you had the chance to cure cancer, “but while you're working on it, we're going to put a digital safety on these bombs implanted in the heads of all your friends, colleagues and family members (who, by the way, don't get to opt out if you say yes), set randomly to go off once in 50,000,000 attempts at detonating them all.” would you say yes? I wouldn't. I couldn't.

These scientists aren't trying to cure cancer. They just want to attempt to recreate the events that occurred just after the big bang to help them better understand astrophysics. Anyway, that's my latest rant. Probably not as important as non-standardized jean sizes that you can just try on in the fitting room anyway, but then I'm not as important as Ozone.

randal
I fear stuff.

Here is some soothing reading for you. No the Earth probably won't explode/implode.

But the energies they're using are minuscule compared to what happens in the galaxy all around us every single day. It's like worrying about an atomic explosion when all you've got is a cap gun.

The purpose is to test the bounds of physics. Contrary to what a lot of people seem to think these days, we don't know everything about everything. Through these experiments they can test some of the bigger theories.- and when you get right down to it there's a lot of that knowledge (on the smaller scale), in the workings of the internet, through computer component design and modern communication methods.
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The only thing I have to rant about right now is that I'm never happy with my artwork -_-

I really like socket 775 processors and chips, but I hate wrangling with the heatsinks they use.

The only thing I have to rant about right now is that I'm never happy with my artwork -_-

Good. It's an excuse to keep improving it.

I like the Large Hadron Collider. They are risking the lives of an entire species just to test theories.

That is real science right there.

killersteak

randal
I fear stuff.

Here is some soothing reading for you. No the Earth probably won't explode/implode.

You linked a website called “Bad astronomy.” where half the people who commented on that article said, “so what if we are destroyed? It'll be for science.”

As I said, I don't think there will be a problem with the LHC, but having it run by people with that attitude is a bit disconcerting.

I like to call it the Large Hard-on Collider.

Custard Trout
Black_Kitty, a few years ago when I was still in high school, one of the teachers asked me if I wanted to get into teaching as a career. I said no. She told me that this was a very wise decision.

Thank you for inadvertently backing up her claim.

Haha~ :)

I think that's the general sentiment, even among other non-high school teachers. I told my friend a few years back that I'm going into high school education and I remember her shuddering. She then said that all she has to do is think back to how she was as a high school student and that's enough to convince her not to teach high school. (She now teaches elementary and personally, I think that's harder than high school. But to each their own I suppose.)

I actually like teaching high school despite my rant. I wanted a challenge, a chance to teach art/English, and a chance to go more indepth into the material. High school allows me to do that. It just eats up a lot of my time (for example I spent all day yestesrday creating a PowerPoint on balance in photography. It was gobbled up in class in half an hour) and sometimes things happen that make absolutely no sense.

Teaching can be great. Just have to watch out for those Third graders who watch too much CSI.

I had just taken a dish out of the stove, set the lid to the side, took off my oven mits, scooped out the food, and then went to grab the lid again, sans oven mitts, only to burn my finger. -_- It took me less than 30 seconds to completely forget that the thing was hot.

Slept with some seedy jerk, shoulda realized something was up when he looked so guilty and didn't call back- hopefully getting into the std clinic this week. -_- Pray it's not hiv or something… then all my ‘u haz aids’ jokes would implode on the irony. I doubt it's serious though.

irony is a funny word….but idont think i'm coming down with a case of irony….

in fact, right now i dont know what in my life could happen to cause a case of the ironies..but i dont want to tempt fate in finding out….

Skullbie
Slept with some seedy jerk, shoulda realized something was up when he looked so guilty and didn't call back- hopefully getting into the std clinic this week. -_- Pray it's not hiv or something… then all my ‘u haz aids’ jokes would implode on the irony. I doubt it's serious though.

Maybe he just has a girlfriend or something? I hope you'll be OK.

Custard Trout
Maybe he just has a girlfriend or something? I hope you'll be OK.

No he didn't, I just got this really bad feeling while doing it(I'm not gonna go into since it's Nasty). Thanks^^

Skullbie, I honestly hope that you're not infected by something so serious as HIV or AIDS. D:

I'm hoping its something less serious and probably treatable.

The Monster Show, by David J Skal, is the worst book ever written. His ideas are good in theory, but he never discusses them in the book. He just keeps going on and on about Tod Browning and how great he is. He actually spends several paragraphs talking about how much Tod Browning's uncle liked baseball. I AM NOT FUCKING KIDDING.

There's a chapter called ‘Tod Browning’s America' given this title, I thought he'd discuss Browning's career and his influences on and from the country. But no, he just tells us about how Browning was born and grew up in minuscule, obsessive detail.

“The Monster Show uncovers the surprising links between horror entertainment and the great social crises of our time”

That's written on the blurb on the back of the book (the rest of the blurb takes up the entire back of the book, which is too fucking long for a snippet of information). Nowhere in the book does Skal even mention this, he just goes on, and on, and on, about Tod Browning.

LoveandGuns
I'm hoping its something less serious and probably treatable.

Prolly better to hope she has nothing at all :)

…Mebe a case of thrush? ^^
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I bought a pack of four neenish tarts at the supermarket the other day. But the sweet cream filling is REALLY shallow, hardly any there, and the chocolate half of the icing is only a thin coating on the top of the white icing that covers the whole thing. And the icing is really sloppily applied around the edges!

Next time I'll buy them from a bakery instead like usual. It's more expensive but worth it!

I would like it to go on record that eating a fry up and then drinking two pints of milk is very bad idea. See, I'm not going to be buying dinner with my food card thingy tonight, so I had some extra money.

I'm going to throw up.

It just occurred to me (no seriously) that even if the schools accept me, there's no way I'll be able to pay for tuition beyond a year, so I'll probably just have to drop out again next summer. Geez.
A little rectangle of paper is NOT worth 64,000+ dollars. It just isn't. No matter how many fond memories and special skills come with it. If one of those skills isn't the ability to crap bricks of gold, it's just not fair trade.

Why can't I just trade for my education? Like, you teach me for a year, and you can have my bike, my gamecube, and your weight in used sketchbooks. Teach me for four years and I'll give you my car and my cat.

I disagree. I think the long term benefits of that piece of paper makes it a very worthwhile thing to get. Of course this depends on what you want to do in the future and what career you want to pursue. However I went into debt to get my two pieces of paper and I don't regret one cent of it. I may not be able to crap bricks of gold but I am able to get a job that pays quite comfortably.

Then again, I only paid 37k for my education. So my tuition wasn't as heavy.

I know a college education is worth it. I've already been in and out college once, and I have joined and left the work force and I am aware how valuable a degree is.

But I'm just frustrated by the weight of the financial burden and I'm a little scared of not being able to stick to the whole college thing this time, so I'm going to shift the blame onto tuition. _>

It's still too expensive though. Universities are in the business of providing education, but they also are a BUSINESS, and as a consumer and a student I feel that I have the right to complain that services a lot of colleges provide are NOT equal to their cost.

That's not to say that all of the universities are unfair.

my 2 cents.

theres always vocational school.

I've looked at few, but most of the ones in my area are automotive mechanics…not my cup of tea.

I can agree on the college being too expensive thing. I'm not sure if it's worth the debt load to become an illustrator, but I can't think of any other way to really learn the skills.

The school I'm transferring to this year is giving me 16,000 a year in grants and other aid, but I still have to make up at least another 15,000 myself. Provided I can swing the same grants and everything the next couple of years that still leaves me with 60,000 in school costs plus whatever other costs I need to live.

I figure that they're charging 25,000 a year for tuition alone on each student, and from knowing my dad's pay level as an associate professor who got paid 45,000 a year while he taught, I figure it takes about 3 student tuitions to pay for a full professor. And each class has anywhere between 15 and 20 student. Toss in another 7 students for maintaining the college and that still leaves you 5 to 10 student's worth of tuition that I have no clue where exactly it's going.

Skullbie

Custard Trout
Maybe he just has a girlfriend or something? I hope you'll be OK.

No he didn't, I just got this really bad feeling while doing it(I'm not gonna go into since it's Nasty). Thanks^^

Because he said he didn't?

Jeeze. Go to another country to learn, it can be a lot cheaper, even with travel and accommodation costs. We had a lot of South East Asians and Norwegians (special arrangements), at my old Uni- In Perth Western Australia. But people come from all over the place, the US included.

My mom's spazzing out because one of the schools is out of state, there's no telling what she would do if I left the country <<< (that's not to say I haven't been looking.)

I would LOVE to go to school someplace else! That would be so cool.